10 Years

How did it happen? Where did the last 10 years go? The first decade of a new millennium has already passed me by. It's been 10 years since I left my first employer and yet despite making gains, I'm now making the same amount of money I was 10 years ago. It's like 1999 all over again.

I can't go back and I can't have any regrets. I have to look forward. Have been in therapy for the last year and I think it's helping. I have a better outlook on life. The economy still sucks and I'm finally at the point where I truly am grateful that I still have a job - many people I know have lost their jobs, and some are still worried that they will lose their job any day now. I'm looking at things differently.

Still, finding it hard to motivate myself. Just got back from a visit with the family and I've been parked here on the sofa for two hours. Should go to the grocery store ... do some laundry ... at the very least, unpack. I'm going to try to set short, attainable goals. I'm going to buy my own home in 2010. I will find a way. I'm going to keep looking forward. It's a promise I'm making to myself.